but when i got to school, rachael started my day with funny spirits and said "well atleast you know you're not pregnant!" and i said, true. atleast i'm not pregnant. which is funny... because i know i wouldn't be even if i never got my period. but why oh why did it happen this morning? atleast i checked and had supplies. god forbid i run out of supplies.

i wanted to be so full of smiles. and nothing would budge. i wasn't in a super great mood. just okay. and its just two more years with more to look forward to. higher grades. better days. more time for myself and more money to spend and more things to share with my friends. all of you are so important to me. you're keeping me here in connecticut, i hope you all know.

it's going to be a great year for all of us. it's all starting for me now. i'm all starting my future and know what i want to do and where i want to go and who i want to be. i'm dissappointed that i have to spend all my wonder years with people in our school that i dont know very well and who i dont want to know and be a part of... but that's life. there are always those people. just hope somebody good comes along for me.