a lot of things like friends and relationships would not come down to money of course. you have to put things into perspective though, would you have the same friends and relationships?

atleast we'd probably have trees. then we could all breath.

i'm sick of it all christine. i mean all of it. i am finding things to be pointless and misleading. WHY all these things? WHY WHY WHY do i have to do things? WHY do i feel guilty.. WHY can't i speak to my manager at work. it doesnt help that she gives me the evil eye but WHY does she? i've been ignoring life as its been handed to me. i've been tantalized and teased and proded to no end. and to no end is there any point -- fun is nothing to me because i havn't had it. i truely smile when i feel something worthy has happend.

i'm sick. i dont think paying for therapy is something that would help me. i think it might destruct me.