11:54 p.m. - 07.07.03 - i'm not the one you used to know
Extreme. Timid. Anxious and bold. Hold on, I'm coming. I'm riding the train down to my cold heart and burning coal. Everything melts extreme when I can see the world from many windows. Not everyone understands... this mumble jumble. But its for your eyes to wonder and my hands to write. Perhaps no meaning of it... but what you see -- you have. And maybe sometimes, I understand your thoughts and how you feel but for the most part I don't think that its what's right. Of course I balance selfish with good will and the health of others... but I try to maintain the standard people person attitude and genuine trusting smile. But back to possibly being an aunt; that would be great. But I always think those things are great until they're done and happend. I would be an excellent aunt. Don't ask me any questions about this... because I'm not an aunt. But my family was discussing how Josh
could be a father now. Because those things happen. For all we know, he could be. For what we know - he isnt. But I've changed. And I'm back to how things are. Being busy with days and rest on days off, it's easy to understand that I am willing to ease the break. I am willing to press the gass with my iron foot. I love the windows down and I love to prance under the sun of everyone I've ever wanted to meet. I love people a lot, and I'm not ashamed of it. I like to look at the cute boy who works at the main gate at nights. Carolyn might think it's rediculous, but I like to bring in money because he expects it and i'm like
"HI!!!!!!!!!! REMEMBER ME? I'M ROSIE! I WORK AT THE CAMP OFFICE AND I THINK YOUR CUTE! HAHAHAHAHA AND GUESS WHAT, I AM DROPPING OFF MONEY BECAUSE I THINK YOU'RE CUTE! AND EVERY DAY I HOPE THE DEPOSIT IS RIGHT JUST SO I CAN DO THAT" So anyway. Back to goodnight.
-Rosie
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