8:14 p.m. - 10.30.03 - for eternity
it quickened the fight and silenced my anger. how everything turns to be my fault and my doing and how could i and why would i and how ashamed i should be! and then there was pink all over like it was the women's light of a female prison but we passed the prison and it wasn't that and then we thought maybe the plant... but no. and then i thought wow i learned something in high school. aurora brealis was in the sky all pink with the ridges and i knew that my life was still alive when i saw it. why did it come to east lyme? why was it following us from town to town. one side to another all night in the car we tried pinching each other to see if it was just a dream and we never woke up so it must be real. the stars shone through and were out there on a map for me to see and i had no camera because that is when i need it, you know? when the world is natural and the world is beautiful and life never forgives you for forgetting. but then life never lets you forget. to tell everyone of the beauty and never to forget. to look up there with your mom and your dad and brother and sister. your grandparents and cousins... one of those things you'll never forget and you'll talk about at christmas dinners. and tell your children like it was some nightmare but really the spirits all lifted you from your seat and you couldn't feel anything but the sky and the crescent moon and some sparkles like a dream.
it was a dream.
and i was there to never forget. because those dreams are instilled for eternity
before or after
