11:52 p.m. - 08.09.03 - a bloody mary. a fuckin bloody mary
I don't think you realize what you've got until you see it. Until you walk with the aunt that misses your brother, and you share a smoke with her and you realize your old enough to make the decisions on whether or not you're going to be smart and do stupid shit, or be stupid and let nothing touch you. I'm going to let the world touch me with every finger before I decide what's right. But I can't understand what came over me. Two days -- it's been overcoming me. This drinking I thought I'd never get into. My imagination lets me linger. Let me love every minute. Let god decide. Lets see who wants to make me who I am. I love this life. I love my life.
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